Flashbackkkk

2010 is about to arrive...jus 24 hrs remaining till d clock ticks 12 00 n we leave behind 2009 and get goin into a new n hopefully a prosperous year...

As a rotinue (year ending hysteria) i started thinking all d past events...n as customary all d disastrous things came in my memory.(i wonder as to why our temporal lobe is an expert to store n revive all the grief striken things at a faster rate than the days of glory).

Quite obviously as everyone else, i had my share of best and worst days as always as every other year...no life turning events...can say quite similar to the prev year or the year before..

yet a feeling, an urge to say that ALL'S NOT WELL...

Mayb this feeling is a hope that our coming year should be and will be better than the previous year...

On a positive note, as an attempt to leave the year happily i would love to mention the good n glorious days..

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  First n foremost....Im back home:)    
  
  
  HAppy to be back home with my parents, glad to have escaped the horrid half lunches and skipped dinners in hostel, relieved to leave all the chores to mom:)
  

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   My hardwork paid off...
  
  
  I can proudly say that my graduation days weren't a waste..have something to boast about it. All the days of hardwork did pay off n got a beautiful result and as a feather on cap got the best student award:)...happy to stand out of so many people..
  

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  Mental peace and physical rest
  
  
  Yup!!!mental peace..all of which was wavering the previous year...finally got it stabilised in 2009.The reason mayb coz im home n partly mayb coz im away from things which took away smile 4m my face.Physical rest is coz most of time this year ive been in my home not wandering anywhere, no more college, no work, loads of idle time to pursue other things n more time for family...
  

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  Coming face-2face with the real corporate world.
  
  
  Life in college is actually a training session for us.Though it teaches us the ways n rules of real world, but the  experience comes when u actually leave the college n step out into the rat race. This is when u truly understand the meaning of "SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST". All the theoritical knowledge u gained in college has to be put in a practical basis, n thats the real challenge.
  
  

As soon as i came out of the college, it was fun in the beginning but later on i understood the seriousness of the decision which i should take at this moment to turn out my life beautifully professionally n personally.

So all in all this year made me think seriously about my life and my future.

Professionally speaking this year mayb considered as a backlog in my life coz except for a few months practising as a dentist in a clinic there hasnt been much i made out of this year...but personally i learnt a lot of the ways of life..

Hmmmm...when ive actually spoken of the good things, i really feel much better now!!!

Considering all these i must say it wasn't a bad year after all:)

I can finally say

"AAL IZZ WELL"

Happy to be ending this post and bidding adieu to 2009 with a smiling face...

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Youngest in Family :(

When i mention the word "youngest" in the family,i know there might be many of u who may think that it is best to be so...a lucky way to be rescued of all the responsibilities, having the privilege of being loved by one n all, being pampered upon by parents, havin lots of heads to guide you to the path of success, n so on...huh!!!!!

Frankly none is totally wrong...there is li'l bit of truth in those who say its lucky to be youngest considering the above said...

But trust me...being the youngest has its share of advantages but the disadvantages outweigh all the above mentioned things...

First n foremost...there is li'l scope of being independent...though u are given the freedom of takin ur own decisions...but more often its taken away from u even without your knowledge...

The decision taken by u is finally the outcome of lotta cogitation by ur family members(not solely ur's) and u just go with the flow....and before you even realise that, u are head down under with that decision and finally have to accept it...

U have no other go....

have to abide by what they say...

Having said that, i must mention it is good to have someone to back u always...but most of the times it becomes a habit and finally when u have no one to guide u....u falter n vacillate even at the minor decisions....

People feel that the youngest kids in family are the most outrageous, brave, and sorta insensitive...

but lemme tell u...all these feelings are the result of attention seeking....yup!! very much true...though the most loved in the family, they always have to go through the check-o-meter.....comparison with siblings...

They strive to be best to fit in the spotlight...

n mayb thats the reason why they are very fun loving, mischeivous, loquacious, gettin indulged in things, affectionate(loads of hugs n kisses to give out)....sole reason being to gain attention of their parents...

(either work hard to be center of attention or break the rules)

mayb a very good outcome of this attention seeking is that they always excel in everything they do...

The worst part of being youngest is they are not only guided by the parents but also by siblings(they behave as though they r the pathfinders)...

which is the most annoying part...

U r supposed to respect ur siblings,

join the school which they joined,

follow their footsteps coz they have already passed ur age n know where to go n where not to,

 get all second hand goods n yet feel happy to be getting them,

always speak after them...

(coz parents always listen to 1st  kids 1st)....

n finally even after u do all this....a day comes when ur parents say..."dont be a menace"...learn from ur sibling...they know everything n u r still a kid...

STILL A KID??????

being 20 something is still being a kid???

????

Is it good or bad???

Happily ever after..

".....................and they lived happily ever after"...
Awww!!!! such a beautiful way to end all the stories....n frankly jus to read these last two lines i long to read the whole fairy tales...

I donno bout the guys out thr..but can for sure say tht 90% of the girls will at some point of thr life sit down on their porch n dream bout her prince charming,true love's kiss....n thn the...Happily ever after quote....:)

The fantasy of Prince charming....The Proposal....The dream wedding....The dream house....

n

finally

living

 happily ever after with ur prince charming..

It's a dream come true,,,,,if a girl actually encounters all these things,,,right!!!!

Dont worry girls..."Dreams do come true"...so dont ever get disappointed whnever someone says tht all these things happen only in fairy tales....

Dream high n believe in ur dreams tht thy will come true one day...

(touch wood)

trust me!!!

Thy will come true!!!

 (keep ur fingers crossed)...

DECIDOPHOBIA

Well....thr r a few sayings which i keep repeating to myself whenever im low or having decidophobia...
n today is one of those greatest days of my Indecisiveness....
jus hoping tht these sayings boost up me and all those who r feeling low today...:):)

"Destiny is not a matter of chance,its a matter of choice."

"The boldest decisions are the safest."

"Somewhere along the line of development we discover what we really are, and then we make our real decision for which we are responsible. Make that decision primarily for yourself because you can never really live anyone else's life."

                                  -- Eleanor Roosevelt

"Decide like a man of action, implement like a man of thought."

"Every problem, properly perceived, becomes an opportunity."

"Thinking without action is a daydream. Action without thinking is a nightmare."

"Things, which matter most, must never be at the mercy of things which matter least."

"good decision is never an accident."so always decide with your mind and not with your hope.

I was actually surfing google about the root cause of indecisiveness n luckily found a site which said...
OVERCOMING INDECISIVENESS...n i was promptly interested in tht...n this is wht i found in tht ;5steps to overcome ur indecisiveness...

1. Listen to your gut. Usually your instincts are right on. However, if you have been shushing your gut feelings over a long period of time, you might have forgotten how to know what they are saying to you. Breathe deeply, close your eyes and try to hear that inner voice.
2. Consider the worst case scenario of that gut feeling. Once you have thought about the most terrible thing that could happen if you make your instinctive choice, you might realize that it wouldn't be that bad. You can also come up with ways to deal with that possible outcome.
3. Leave it alone for a while. If the decision does not need to be made immediately, give yourself a time limit to mull it over. Sleep on it or walk away for a half-hour.
4. Imagine living with the decision. That might be as simple as eating a butter brickle sundae or as life altering as being married to the person you are dating. Sit in the feelings that come along with that imagery. Do you feel content or disappointed, stressed out or at peace?
5. Flip a coin. Call heads for one choice, tails for the other. When the coin lands and you see the outcome, check your emotions. Do you feel relieved or let down? Use this as a tool in coming to your final decision.

  These are i suppose the most silly but the most common things we do at some or the other point in our life to decide upon something...n believe me whn things r not life decisive, these 5 steps actually work without much thought...i splly love the flip a coin segment..n it actually works with me in silly encounters of daily indecisiveness...But whn things are serious n mayb life turning, thn in my opinion, only one thing works:"Being true to yourself".....


Honesty is to be the one you are.It is important to identify your weaknesses as well as your strengths. Being honest with yourself is the most important thing you can ever do. When it comes to yourself, you have to be brutally honest. To be honest, you must fully accept that at this moment, you can only be what you are. No more, no less; however, with the inevitable passing of each moment of time, you will gradually, but surely change -- to become more or less, better or worse, stronger or weaker. Your choice is the direction of change. The only true competition is the rivalry within your changing self.

Everything starts with yourself -- with you making up your mind about what you're going to do with your life.


Finally, in decision-making there is no one better to talk to than yourself if you really want to get things worked out. No other person has as much information about your problems, and no one knows your skills and capabilities better.
LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS!!!!!the best way to lead a life in tht maner is to take a full responsibility of your decisions,your life.

n finally whn you have decided upon something....a way to success n happiness is...


"Make a choice - any choice. If it is the wrong one, learn from it. And if it’s right, then congratulations!!!"

Happy B'day

Happy Birthday to u....
                 Happy birthday to u.....
                                Happy Birthday Dear Jyo...
Happy birthday to u....




Missing u a lot on ur bday...may god bless u n b happy forever n ever...

Kitchen Queen

I jus love the title...

N yes im in the process of gettin tht title.....started with a chocolate cake...n it came out super delicious..

WAs so excited tht took few pics of my 1st cake...

It is much more yummier thn it looks...:)

Twilight Watch

"TWILIGHT WATCH"

No...its not about d fantasy novel n neither bout d movie....

I was wandering on my terrace whn i suddenly eyed the sky n couldnt stop myself from capturing d beautiful scenery at dusk...

SWEET SORROW

Juliet:

Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow,

That I shall say good night till it be morrow.

(Romeo And Juliet Act 2, scene 2, 176–185)

 

This famous phrase explains how Juliet expresses parting from Romeo just for the night as "such sweet sorrow"...

Her phrase is an oxymoron, combining contradictory ideas of pleasure and pain.

 

The same way when a relationship ends,

one person tends to shed it off faster,

while the other wades through the pain and grief of parting....

mayb thats y

PARTING

can be

SWEET SORROW...

The way the partners respond totally depends on their personality and state of dependence on each other....It can also be impacted by the manner in which the parting happened.

If the 2 partners decide to part to move on to a more positive stuff(if the break is for the right reason),the parting is likely to be amicable.However if one partner walks out of the relation on his own terms n doesnt justify his reasons for parting,then the subsequent interaction is bound to be acrimonious.

In order to have a tranquil after,its prime to weed out the negativity along with the relationship.

You cannot predict as to how the relationship ends,but u can certainly let go of it with dignity..

If handled carefully from each others aspect,parting though painful,can at least cease to be a lifelong trauma.

And perhaps,when u look back in the autumn of life.it can Jus b a sweet sorrow.....

APPALLING ANgels...

"It was a cold dark night

walking over the bridge

lights flashing ahead

I crossed the white line

and held on tight

 scenes of my life dawned

before my eyes

God sent angels to take me home

because he loved me so

Family and friends dont shed a tear

I'm up here far away from fear"

This is d most common phrase we hear whnever someone tries to console us to get over d loss of our beloved one's...Its so easy to say that because d angels love thm more thn us,thy took thm away so soon...

The most difficult part is for d family members and friends to get over the tragedy...

A person who was with us till yesterday will no longer b seen....nor whn we wake up,not at d dinner table,nor in d lawn,not while watching tv,nor outdoors,nor indoors.........the only place we can ever expect to c thm again is in our memories n our dreams.......

But even thn life moves on.....even though we r grief stricken..."life never stops n never gives us a chance to stop"...it just goes on....

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"kissi ne dilko is kadar chu liye ki hum kissi aur ko chu na sake.....
hum to chale dost banane ae aap to dhadkan ban gaye".....

Strange hubbub

My brain is working all d time these days...tringing all d time...keeping me awake all night...makin me insomniac...n only because its confused...

It tells me to love someone today n d next day says....NOoo...ur love isnt gettin reciprocated so stop loving...

It convinces me tht ur attempts to impress ur loved one has failed so stop thinking bout him...but after a lot of cogitation says...NOoo...did anyone achieve success without repeated trials...

It suggests me to forgive an old friend with whom had a biggg fight yrs back...n d next moment says...NOoo...think of d distress u faced due to thm...

It mulls over d fact tht someone hurt u so much so u r not supposed to speak to thm...thn after few days reasons philosophically n says...NOoo..."To err is human,to forgive is divine"...

It forces me to call up a dear friend with whom u dint have a chat for days long...n d next second says...NOoo...y should u call...let thm call u...

It persuades d heart in not calling ur best buddies n waits for thr call...but thn finally decides n says...NOoo...whts wrong in calling first..someone or d other has to take d initiative...

It asks me to study all night long n thn thinks n says...NOoo...if u dont have a proper sleep who will concentrate d next day...

It forces me to sleep well before d exam n suddenly in my dream says...NOoo...want to fail in d exam or wht...wake up n finish ur portion...

It lures me into going out with my frnds for a late night movie by lying to my parents as combined studies...n finally enlightens itself n says...NOoo...can u cheat upon ur own parents...

It decides to stay back home whn ur frnds r going out to disco coz ur parents have set some timelines...but thn suddenly gets roused n says...NOoo...I cant sit back home...after all "rules r meant to b broken"...

N y to get into so many discussions...d best example of this confusion is...
It is asking me to delete this post...y to tell everyone tht u r confused...n at d same time mulling over this matter says...NOoo...i dint type all this to throw it in trash...thr should be some use for wasting so much of my time...

Well mayb u all too face such situations daily...mayb thts d reason y ppl say tht "Brain is d most complex biological structure known"...many things bout it r still mysterious even to d gr8 scientists who pondered over it for millions of yrs...

Im not sure bout clearing d confusion bout other things but ive decided to post this in my blog now...Lets c decision of other things too comes as quickly as this one...:)

My Dream Ring

Tu jaane na.....

Milke bhi hum na mile...tumse na jaane kyun....
Milo ke hai faasle ....tumse na jaane kyun....
Anjaane hai silsile...tumse na jaane kyun....
Sapne hai palko tale....tumse na jaane kyun....

Kaise batayein kyun tujhko chaahe...yaara bata na paaye....
baatein dil o ki deku jo baaki aankhein tujhe samjhaye....
TU JAANE NA.........

When i first heard this song it was as if aatif aslam wrote this splly 4me....it so truly predicts mere dil ka haal....

"If u want something very badly,put in your full efforts n then let it go free......
If it comes back to u, it's your's forever,
If it doesnt, it was never your's to begin with"

TUM MILE.....

Tum mile to lamhe tham gaye....

Tum mil to saare gham gaye.....

Tum mile to muskuraana aa gaya...

Tum mile to mil gaya yeh jahaan..

Tum mile to har pal hai naya....

Tum mile to sabse hai faasla...

Tum mile to mehki baarishee...

Tum mile to jaagi khwayishee...

Tum mile to rango ka hai silsila.....

Tum mile to ab kya hai kami....

Tum mile to duniya mil gayi....

Tum mile to mil gaya aasra....

Tum mile to mera dil gaya....

Tum mile to sab kuch mil gaya....

Tum mile to logo se kya vaasta..

Tum mile to mil gaya humsafar...

Tum mile to khud ki hai khabar..

Tum mile to rishta sa ban gaya....

"TUM MILE TO JAADU CHA GAYA....
TUM MILE TO JEENA AA GAYA....
TUM MILE TO MAINE PAAYA HAI KHUDA...

LOVE

Love-The most beautiful relation in this world......the word itself is so pleasant to hear.....

From the time we enter this world we r surrounded by ppl who love us ....right frm our parents,relatives and slowly as we grow we make frnds...we start loving them and our life seems so happy whn ppl whom we love r around us....

N thn one day u feel mayb this love was not sufficient 4 u n u start searching 4 ur life partner....a person who will b thr with u through think n thin....we go through so many emotions all along our life.....torrent of feelings surround us whn we feel we may actually b in love....

Many people actually say tht true love happens only once n tht is ur 1st love....but is this in real???

Wht is exactly meant by true love...finding an emotional security in ur partner..or coz u felt infatuation as love due to immaturity...or jus coz u actually wanted to b in love..

There are many instances in our life whr we felt tht mayb this is wht we've been searching 4.....

We finally think of infatuation or crushes as love n spend some happy moments with tht person...but slowly down d line we realise tht this was not at all the person we ever wished of...we get easily frustated n want to end the relation.....and slowly after so many mixed emotions one day u realise ur childish acts....

whn our teens end n we start life afresh...d surge of hormones slow down...our maturity level increases...n finally we know wht we actually want from our lives....we r sure wht we will do in our career n in our life...emotions subside n practicality increases.....

We concentrate more on d settlement aspect n have a zeal to achieve something in our life...it is now whn we can say ourselves as stable....n whn at this point u actually find someone...u dont go with the flow...u think,analyse,take a lot of time fighting ur emotions n finally decide on something....this is the point i feel true love actually happens....

U r at a point in ur life whr u r emotionally,financially stable n u perfectly know the gud n bad aspects of a relation...u know wht u actually want from ur partner...n the relation which forms at this stage is d most stable....4 me true love is nothing but the understanding level between u n ur partner...the day u realise u can stay with tht person even in poverty n u still c tht persons hand in urs even in such situations...it is this point whr u can actually settle down with thm...

This is the time whn u feel a sense of responsibility...towards ur family n even towards ur partner...

I must say tht the ppl who fall in love at this point r d most lucky few....(i better say understadning d relation rather thn saying falling in love)...
I really hope to be in d lucky few.....

You will forever stay in our hearts YSR....

This is the worst day of my life and most of the andhrites...the day when our most beloved CM passed away...
Dr.Y.S.Rajashekhar Reddy,the most dynamic Chief minister the state has ever had passed away.
He was the only person whom we used to idolize,a perfect man both in professional and personal life.He changed the scenario of politics and made the younger generation believe tht thy can change the world if thy are willing to do so.He became a role model for lakhs of people.
He was hale and hearty n we still cant believe tht he is no more with us,not here to guide us,not here to rule us....God has been so harsh with all of us tht he took him away....
But there is one way we all can pay tribute to the legend...follow his ideals...this way he will always be in our hearts and in our lives...
May God bless the great man's soul...may his soul rest in peace...may God give thr family members n wellwishers the courage to face the fact tht he is no longer with us....
You will always stay in our hearts YSR...we will love you n will follow ur footsteps forever...

bhaiyya mere rakhi ke bhandan ko nibhana....

Iam still waiting 4 my raksha bandhan gift my dear bro ganny....u promised me d gift n i dint get it till now......im still waitin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Frankly to say of all the things i am d most happiest tht i got u as my bro...

I used to feel so sad tht i dint have an elder bro until u came in my life...since 4yrs im really glad tht ive had u as my bro,my best frnd.....

but being my bro is not sufficient..u know wht i want now...so get me tht as soon as poss....im literally waitin....;);););)))))

im so happy tht today 4yrs of our relation is completed...thnks a lot 4 being thr 4 me in all my good n bad times all these yrs...i love u a lot ganny n i hope our relation goes on till my end....love u lots my dearest bhaiyya:)

yippieeee one more medal....

I am so happy today.....
my dad came home today with a big box of sweets n my fave rasagulla....me n my mom were waitin to hear d gud news....i was sure it was related to his office..mayb regarding some hike in his salary or position....
n i was absolutely true...the news was regarding his office but it was not completely bout him!!!!!
It was bout me!!!!!!
my dad's office ppl wanted to felicitate me with a gold medal n a scholarship worth 20k coz i got univ first...:):):):)
I was so happy to hear tht thy actually remembered tht my pa told thm 4 months back tht i got a gold medal from d univ n now thy wanted to make me feel more spl by awarding me one more medal.......
Actually i was so upset 4m d past few days regarding my settlement..i was so pissed off with myself 4 wastin almost half yr....i really needed a boost up 4m someone...i really needed someone to say tht i can do anythin in my field,coz im talented enuf;);) (i know self praise is donkey praise...but chalta hai yaar ek din ke liye...zyada modesty bhi kaam nahi karta...need to b a bit boastful na...:):))....
Finally tonight il sleep with relief...atleast 4 a day d tension of my settlement has reduced.....
N d best part is tht il b receiving d medal on aug 15th....:):)
So finally a happy day 4 me......

kya kare kya na kare...yeh kaisi mushkil hai....

im totally confused.....i really donno wht to do next

i wanna go abroad n do my pg thr one moment n d very next moment i feel y not settle in my own place n open up a clinic...

hmmm...yeh pareshani kaise door hogi... :( :( :(

im really vexed up wasting 6 months of my life doin jus nothing at all...im jus lazing around n wasting my precious time...working in d clinic was fine 4 two months but now i cant work anymore in someone else's clinic...i want to open my own...but scared of my settlement.

ohhh god...get me out of this confusion....

Miss u

"Distance makes the heart grow fonder"
Ive heard bout this proverb umpty number of times but this is d 1st time im experiencing it.......
Jyo...my sis...the only person ive always wished to go away 4m my life so tht i can hav my room all by myself...i can hav d love of my parents all by myself...i get a full control of the remote...i can get d scooty n wht not....
finally my wish got fullfilled...my sis got married n went away..it was so fun in d starting but now its like my life is hollow without her...now i cant fight with anyone b4 sleeping 4 which side of d bed...the bed is totally mine now but thr's no one to chat with on sleepless nights. Thr's no1 to take me out 4 a drive whnever i feel low,no more burst of laughter on the streets,no more eating panipuri in our galli, no more scary movies in d midnight,no more plotting n planning to throw away milk,no more fights in front of d mirror...i cant even share my wardrobe with ny1 nd worst of all i cant even speak my heart out with ny1 else........no 1 can understand me better thn u...
Miss u soooooooo much jyo...i never thought i would miss ny1 to this extent...
come back soon...(but only 4 a month:):):)...ekuva aite malli godavalu modalu aitayi;).
love u so much.

Destiny

life is so unpredictable...wht we like we never get...wht we wish 4 never happens...n finally wht we get we r not satisfied by it....
but the gud part is tht we finally learn to love wht we have....
n im lucky tht im blessed...i never regret life..im happy with wht i have..though i dreamt of many things which are unsatisfied but still i am happy at the turn of events in my life...
lets c whr my life takes me in the coming year...hopefully il b happy with whtever's in store 4 me